It has been quite sometime since I have had any desire to blog. Since my last post my life has gone in a completely opposite direction. I am no longer moving to the Great White North, I am no longer in a relationship and I am not longer continuing my education (at this point).....Yup, take all of this and throw into the same week of your life and you can only imagine that shock was the initial feeling.
I don't have many years of age under my belt yet, but the relationship ended because the time to find who we are is now and I would of been miserable over time if I had moved up there with him. Don't get me wrong, I was heartbroken but deep down after the anger and crying had passed, I know it was for the best. Oh and I went through all of this while still doing my work experience for school, so that helped by staying busy.
It truly amazing how much about my self I have already discovered. I am not angry anymore, I forgive him and at this point I know we will be great friends for a very very long time, which is a huge relief. Losing a boyfriend is one thing but to loose your best friend really would of been too much.
So many things have came into my life that have changed my perspective on things. I've accomplished goals that I would never of have seen myself completing two years ago. A person in your life can change your outlook but they can also help you grow. I will always thank him for that. I am now officially done with my diploma program that I was taking in Graphic Communications. It is such an amazing feeling knowing how far I have come as a person and how much I have learned. I will never loose this knowledge and I am ready for the next chapter of my life.
My advice that yes may be in-experienced for my age, I have already gone through so much I feel like deep down I gained a lot of wisdom. To anyone out there who even reads this, always remember that it is darkest before the dawn, what doesn't kill you does make you stronger as a human. Your soul will only grow and become stronger from what life throws at you. I have only discovered the beginning of what I want in my life, and what I want to get from it but I can tell you I am so excited to start my 20's in two months with such a brave outlook on everything. Confidence is key to understanding that you can achieve anything. A good friend told me I can achieve anything I set my mind too, and he is right and I will always be grateful for his words of kindness because when someone tells you something that changes your life, you better start believing that everything happens for a reason and that it will be okay.
Don't stop believing in yourself, ever.
Excella
Xoxo
